This is in Gozo. Azure Window. Every time I go to a place I try to find ideas of photos I can take there. Not to copy but to see beautiful places that you would miss if it wasn't because you have read it somewhere.  So this summer, before going to Malta I tried to fin some pics but there wasn't many so I thought that I should put some of the pics I took there so that if someone does the same as I do, they can have an idea. Hope you like them

Mellieha.

These pics in the doors are in Mdina. There are a lot of colorful doors and balconies.

Crystal clear water.

it is always cool to have a photo walking in a beautiful landscape.

Valletta. This is in the main street of the capital of Malta.

Valleta.

There is something in this picture that makes me love it. (La Valletta)

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Hey, hey, hey! I know it's been ages since my last post but I was with my final exams and I didn't have anything to talk about.
But today, here I am, I'm back!!!!!



As I said, I had my final exams that would decide where I would study next year and luckly, I did really good so I got admitted in the University I wanted. So when I finished my exams I knew it was time for a change and I decided to cut my hair but not just a little, at least 20cm because I wanted to donate it.

I did a little bit of research before taking the decision  and I found a Spanish association called "Mechones solidarios" that make wigs for women and girls with cancer. They don't sell them, they give them for free to the little girls and for the women, they do a special price when they reach a maximum of earnings (they pay just a 20% of the real price that variates between 600€-1500€) I tell you this because there are others associations that sell the wigs just cheaper and they don't give them for free not even in some special cases.

So this association has solidary hairdresses' which are the ones in charge of sending the hair to the wigs factory and I found that they had one in a little village near mine so I decided to go the same day I did my last exam.


And this was the process:

1. So this is exactly minutes before cutting my hair.  I had really long hair and I had just had my hair cut the  week before like 5cm just to have the ends healthy.

2. Once there, they measured my hair and make me decidehow much I wanted to donate. The  minimum was 20 so I said: "okay, cut me more" and she did.

3. I remember her telling me: "are you sure? there is  not coming back" I was really anxious because my  long hair had been with me since I don't remember.  It was going to be weird.

4. Yep, that's my hair. 30cm gone. I felt like something was missing haha. But I felt great. The hairdresser kept  it and explained me what they do next.

5. And this is it. The big change.  #donateyourhair

How did I feel or why did I do it? 

Hiiii everybody!
I've been a little bit off because i didn't know what to post and I was so busy with school that i did't have time to think. As I have just come back from Italy I will post some photos and explain some fun stuff I did there. I went to see my Italian friend that I met this last summer in Los Angeles, it's crazy, isn't it?

DAY 1: TURIN

We took a bus to Turin because they had cancelled our train. We had some difficulties in our journey but we arrived safe and sound. Once we were in the city we went to eat and we ate a kono-pizza. And Omg, it was amazing, I had never heard nothing about it until I saw it but I loved it.


The second photo is in the main square and after finishing our lunch we went to Turin Eye that is balloon that goes 150m high. It was great to see the amazing view but I was frozen because of the wind up there. Besides we stayed there just a couple of minutes and for us the price was a little bit too much. (15€ for 5 minutes) But I liked it.


  Then, we went to the Cinema Museum and this was the part I loved the most. It was so much fun, it had a lot of things to try and see and crazy stuff such as a huge fridge and a room full of toilets to watch a video and more. We bought the lift's ticket too that goes to the top of the Turin's tower and the view was really beautiful.
This day which was Saturday, we had a bday party of my friend's best friend so we had to run to his house to get changed and my friend lost the phone during the run but it was just too late to turn back. 

It was a crazy day but we had a lot of fun and we did a lot of things.

DAY 2: NORMAL DAY

We stayed at home and we went out for dinner with 
some friends and we ate a delicious Italian pizza.

DAY 3: FUN DAY

We went to do the Fly Experience and we flied together but with the instructors too. The way that you feel when you fly so high it is amazing, it was like I was weightless. We flied with a helmet, glasses the special suit and a ponytail and because of the potence you face changed its shape and omg, the photos were so funny. I have to say that it is absolutely expensive but it is something that you do once and you really have to try someday if you have the chance. After it we went to a mall and did some shopping.    

DAY 4: ORANGE BATTLE

You can imagine my face when my friend told me that we were going to an orange battle... But let me explain it. So the thing is that in Ivrea, they celebrate Carnival doing an orange battle. They have like 9 teams on the floor who fight against nine teams on trucks and each team on the floor is signed with a part of the town so the trucks move around and you have to throw oranges to them. They do a parade too with people riding horses and it is really beautiful and I was so scared of being hit with an orange but I had a lot of fun. My friend let me some clothes because each team has an uniform which they pay for. So yeah, I was in an ORANGE battle and I survived. (They hit me once and oh god, they hurt! haha)

DAY 5: MILAN 

Okay, the day started by us taking a train to Milan and it took us two hours to arrive. Once there we met my friend's brother, who is studying in Milan. He showed us the main streets such us Via de la Spiga which has shops such as D&G, Chanel, Valentino with pretty windows.


We went to eat to a Sicilian Restaurant close to Piazza Duomo and I ate the most strange dish of pasta but it was amazing, a mix of flavors. After eating we went to the square to see the Cathedral and I have to say that it impressed me a lot. It is huge and the sun reflects and it is so bright. I loved it. We took tons of pictures and then we went to the Galleria (Idk if you know what it is but it has a lot of expensive shops and it has the roof made of crystal. It is in one of the pics but the light was really bad.)

So after taking pictures we went to do some shoppings and we walked around Milan's streets.














We went to have dinner to a McDonald's that was in the main square and we went to the station to take a train to go back home and I had to say goodbye to my friend's BFF who I met in LA too, the bday boy.

DAY 5: PACKING DAY

 DAY 6: BACK HOME :(

Two weeks ago I went to London to spend 5 days and do some shopping and I tried to take some cool  pics, well, my mother took them, they were just my idea. I'm not professional but I hope you like them.

Big Ben

London Eye Skateboard park

London Eye (contrary side)

Crystal Plataform (London Bridge, Last floor) Btw, the views are amazing.

London Bridge

The tube

Brick Lane

Brick Lane

National Gallery: Van Gogh

Portobello

Portobello Market

Trafalgar Square

As my "scared of the future" post has been my most successful post I'm going to write something related to it. I'm going to talk about my future, who I want to be, to become. (here is the post: http://hicallmehelen.blogspot.com.es/2015/06/scared-of-future.html check it out!)

As far as you know I'm on senior year and I have no idea what I'm going to study and where. Every time I'm walking down the streets and I stop to talk to some friends of my parents the main topic is: "Oh, you're a senior, what are you going to study next year?" and in my mind I answer "I HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA AND I'M ALREADY STRESSED ABOUT IT SO IT IS NICE THAT YOU'VE ASKED SO I'LL STRESS MORE, THANK YOU" but instead I smile and say "I don't know yet"


I have an idea that I like for example editing videos, traveling but are there any degrees where you can study that? I have found Audiovisual communication that is the most similar talking about editing and with journalism you can specialize later on traveling, and guess what? There is a double degree where I can do both together!!!!!!! I was so happy because I thought I have found the one but then I was looking the mark that is asked and it is a 11.5/14 which is a super high mark that I'm not going to have even if I try my best so, bye bye wonderful degree.

Here I'm, lost again, because I don't know if I would like them separately. Once again I envy people who have it so clear like for example my cousin, he have always wanted to study arts and he is, he is so good drawing and he is at university studying arts and he is so happy and it makes me feel anxious because I'm not good at anything, I have no talent and I don't want to study something to be in an office 24/7 doing everyday the same thing for 40 years, I don't want to study something that doesn't passionate me.

The worst thing is that time flies, I have to start looking for universities but how if I don't know which degree I would be able to do?  I was stressed one day that I exploded because why can't I study something that I like even if I try my best  because not even my best isn't good enough?  that really upsets me, that's unfair.

But at least I know that I'm not the only one feeling like this, right? We will figure ourselves out, everyone has done it so we can do it, I really hope that everyone of us will become the person we want, and do whatever we want to do, whatever makes us happy because it is what we deserve.



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Thank you for reading, lots of love,
Helen here.

Sorry for not posting anything but I'm so busy with school... I decided to write this post because I'm in a stressful moment and sometimes I need to read or do little things to be a little bit happier and be positive and forget all the negative things. So I hope you like it!




1. Accept the things you can't change. (not only about yourself but about anything) If you can and you want to change them, do it! Nobody can stop you!

2. Let go of the people who are holding you down. If you considered them, you already know who these are. Don't be with negative people who make you feel bad about yourself, be with supportive people, these who make you be the best you can be.

3. Blast you favorite upbeat song and sing at the top of your lungs, dancing as you go. I really do this, when I'm upset I listen to my fav songs and sing and dance in front of the mirror like I'm doing a concert. (it really makes you feel so happy)

4. Smile at a stranger. It will make both of you smile.

5. Give someone an spontaneous compliment like "oh, you look lovely today" " I like your shirt" "that color make you look really nice" you can make somebody's day just by being nice to them.

6. Write down everything you don't like about yourself and rip it up. I have one notebook where I wrote my negative thoughts and I never read it, it 's like you forget them. It can help.

7. Never pretend to be someone that you're not. Don't act like you like something you don't to impress people, be you, people will love you for just being yourself. It doesn't matter if you love something everybody hates, you love that and that's fine.

8. Eat healthy food and drink so much water. It will make you feel better about yourself.

9. Go out with your friends, just to talk. Talk about your future, about your past together and about silly things. It will make you forget your negative thoughts.

10. Stay at home and relax. Drink tea or coffee, eat popcorn watching your fav film, read a book, take a bath, draw, listen to music, relax, don't think about your work, school or whatever bothers you. It feels so nice to have once in a while time for yourself.

btw, I love Justin bieber's and 1D's new albums!!!! what about you?
Lots of love,




Helen.